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Friday, October 26, 2012

hello......

why hello old friend. i have not seen you in a while.
how've you been? life been kind to you? had any news lately?

last time i checked in i was at a cross-roads. trying to cope with things that weighed heavy on my shoulders.

not much has changed for me since then....

perhaps a few answers.
perhaps a minor improvement.
perhaps a little change of course.

but mostly i am still here. standing. waiting.




i did finally go to a doctor early this year. he diagnosed my knee problem as 'chrondomalasia' gave me a bunch of pills and sent me on my way.  i came back as the pills put me at a serious disadvantage to regular daily living. he gave me a cortisone shot and told me to take the pills and sent me on my way.

well, the cortisone provided some relief..... i don't like the pills (so stopped taking them) .... and with the aid of ice and heat and time my knee has recovered about 97%.  i don't know if it will ever be 100% but i am happy with the results so far.

however, a problem that i attributed to the pills, but did not go away once i stopped taking them, i fall asleep at the drop of a hat. ...watching tv. reading a book. working on the computer (hence why it's been so long since i visited you). driving. sitting at my desk working. it's very frustrating...... i finally got passed the insomina of the past few years and am getting to bed by 11p most nights. however, 7-9 hours sleep does not seem to be enough to keep me from dropping off during the day.

it took the better part of the summer. but i finally worked up the courage to go to a doctor. i had decided it was time to part ways with  my doctor of the past 20+years as he is in the City and i am in the boondocks so not the most convenient situation.... it took a lot of courage but once i put on my big girl panties and got started it seems to all be falling into place.

i went to this new doctor with all my weird 'problems'.....she sent me for blood work and referred me to another doctor to do a sleep study.

the blood work came back. my cholesterol is in a normal range (yay me!) but it seems my sugars are out of whack.  so she sent me for another blood test. and yes. confirmed. type II.  gave me new medicine to level out the sugar/insulin quandry and referred me to a diabetes/nutrition class.

soooooo......my calendar for the next few weeks will continue to be filled with doctors.
11/5 lab work
11/8 follow up dr visit
11/13 diabetes/nutrition class
between now and then an overnight sleep study
12/27 follow sleep dr visit

MAYBE 2013 will bring a new level of health for moi

we shall see.

still have to determine the cause of the pain in the lower right portion of my back. sometimes it is crippling to the point of tears. sometimes it's a mere nuisance getting in the way of daily life.

Friday, April 27, 2012

struggles continue

there is the mundane everyday life's trials and tribulations
and then there is the monumental i don't know how we will get through this event


often they are heaped upon each other until we can no longer discern where the ordinary ends and the extraordinary begins.

i find myself at this crossroads today. and i ask the lord to help me carry my burden. let me resolve what can be resolved and give me strength to endure that which is more than i think i can bear.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

GFA SOUL SISTAHS FO'EVAH BODACIOUS BERRY PIE

TWO GIRLS & A GUY PIE.  Roseville, CA

 i received THE BEST berry pie EVER on tuesday night....
OMGoodness  this pie is DELICIOUS!
I just got home and I could not wait to get in the door and grab my fork and plate......awww FORGET the plate all i need is a fork! this pie is MINE



Yum! Yum! Yum! Yum!
Jen made THE BEST EVER pie and I just LOVE love LOVE the special name she gave it




GFA SOUL SISTAHS FO'EVAH
BODACIOUS BERRY PIE

look at that golden brown crumb topping... seriously i could not ask for a better topping...and we haven't even dived into the heart of the pie yet!!!!

check out all that yummy purple berry goodness
not too sweet
not too tart

berries in EVERY BITE!!!





 










 this is a REALLY REALLY REALLY big cup of chai tea....the pie was NOT miniature!!! and it was SOOOOOOO YUMMY together!


When YOU are ready for THE BEST PIE EVER let me know...... I'll hook you up with
TWO GIRLS & A GUY PIE
you will be glad I did!!!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Day-6

 FIVE PM

....this photo might have worked better if i had pulled over on the overpath and stood still while trying to take the shot.  i wanted to share the 5PM that i see m-f 12 months a year .....this was the clearest shot that i came up with.....but it does not clearly illustrate the sea of red lights that swim in my view all the way home ......

Day-5

....well i am BEHIND again!
i had planned the PERFECT SMILE picture in my head. but i did not see my subject yesterday....did not see my subject today either :(

so i had to go to that famous PLAN B
it's blurry because i decided which plan B i was going for as i was driving
and i needed to take the picture before i ate them all!!!


i chose this subject because strawberries bring to mind many happy thoughts and memories
my grandfather made THE BEST strawberry pie ever
strawberries is one of my favorite scents
eating strawberry ice cream on a hot summer day is delicious
.....strawberries make me smile

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Day-4

my bedside....
i thought about CLEANING it up and making it all pretty...
but THAT is not the real me....i am a clutter. i have things stacked and balanced EVERYWHERE! (of course my excuse is that if my house was bigger, i'd have better storage options!)

i have many 'important things' here:
my blankie controller for the those COLD winter nights....generally set at a 6 or 7
lamp for reading
one of my newest mini-cookbook (yes feeding my addiction) \
conrollers for the light/fan, TV and my bed (yes it's my SLEEP NUMBER bed....my number is 85 YAY!)
a pile of books i'm reading (more on the floor)
and my BLUE BANANA monkey from Jen
and pistachios and water to munch on while reading my many many books...

Day-3

this is my street...it's a quiet little street.
....but as you probably cannot see, there are lots of FOR SALE/FOR RENT signs still up.....this area has been greatly effected by the real estate bust and the down economy.

Friday, March 2, 2012

DAY - 2

fruit


taking a picture everyday is going to be EASY....the DIFFICULT part is going to be taking ONE picture a day......i seriously could have kept shooting these little cuties for hours on end.....

(make-up) DAY - 1

UP....



i spend hours and hours on my keyboard everyday.....ARROW-UP is one of my most useful keys!

March Challenge - PHOTO A DAY

i was reading my friend's blog Notes From A Small Island and she has posted that she is taking part in a photo challenge this month.....

I missed the first day, but I thought maybe I'd join her from across the pond :)

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

i am just plain cranky....ornery.....

this was supposed to go away on its own. not take on a life form of its own. too look at me i do not look like i have an issue....well overfed/under exercised....but that is fairly par for the course.....but otherwise i look normal, no strangely bent limbs no over extended hump in the back, no brain goop pouring out of my head.

and yet.....i feel like a reject from the broken toys factory.........i can barely walk. driving is a chore. sitting is uncomfortable. laying down not good. stairs / curbs - nearly impossible. and running? FORGET it....should i have to run to save my life, surely i will perish!

it hurts all the time. it throbs. it is dull. it is sharp. i cannot straighten it. it hurts to bend it. it is not steady when standing. it crackles when walking.

imagine the worst possible pain you have ever felt  multiply that by 10 and then make it a constant never ending thing.

i FINALLY got up the courage to go to the doctor....to the best of my knowledge he has discounted my worst fear - it is not cancer - .....what it is is chondromalacia-patella . and it's not going away anytime soon.
i did the doctor thing. i asked for drugs. i can only take the drugs at night as they make me incredibly sleepy.......as if i can be MORE sleepy than i already am (from lack of sleeping due to IT) and dizzy....
i did the x-ray thing. and the mri thing. now i wait until friday to do the repeat doctor thing....

in the meantime i am NOT fun to be around. if i were you, i would avoid me at all costs!!!!!
i am ornery....cranky....not pleasant to be near