vicariously on a limb

to live vicariously is no real risk.....in fact the benefits may far out weigh the pitfalls.
the real question is whether to remain vicariously alone....or to share your vicarious desires with another vicariously


oh the things we ponder when we stay up all night.....

*
*
*
*
*
*
*
*
*
*
calling me sugar....you called me sugar

BIG DOG DADDY DAY!!!!

TIMEMANAGEMENT this is DEFINITELY a task that i do not seem to know how to handle!

cuz IF i did i probably wouldn't be so tired & discom-boob-u-lated.......and i wouldn't rush around like a chicken with my head cut off

here it is BIG DOG DADDY day......i had planned to be so organized & ready for the big MEET&GREET event.........................................................................but AM I READY?! lol...now THAT is a silly question!

i am tired...........and all that comes to mind is KENNY's song OUT LAST NIGHT - even tho' i did not go OUT...it was a good night & i got too little sleep

i found a picture to have Toby Keith sign tonight.....at 2 o'clock in the morning, so NO i have not gotten it printed YET.....gotta make that pitstop before i go  across the bridge!!!

i did manage to 'wash the grey' outta my head .....at 5 o'clock in the am.....yea i know i WAS GONNA do it last night but i got distracted :)

do i get to leave work early? probably not :( i FORGOT that i needed to get gas....well i didn't really forget about needing gas.....i just forgot that COSTCO doesn't open until 6am....so my idea of leaving for work by 530a kinda went right out the window *sigh*

oh yea..then there's the camera - i did remember to bring it....but the battery is drained & needed to be charged......yep had to bring all THAT stuff with me to work today

irregardless of my lack of time management & running around in the middle of the night like a chicken with my head cut off.....

i wouldn't change anything...........it was worth every moment!

*   
|  *  
*
|  *
*
|  *
*

GLITTER GLITTER IN THE AIR ~ * ~SPARKLIE SPARKLES EVERYWHERE

FOOD

my best friend
my enemy
my comforter
my destroyer

we NEED it to live
we WANT it to feel good / give pleasures / set off endorphines

i am in a LOVE/HATE relationship with food......never fear i will not ever become anorexic nor bulemic.....but on the other hand i may eat so much that one day i will just EXPLODE.

i am a JUNKFOOD JUNKIE (remember that song from the 70's?!) in the trueset sense of the word....i am happiest while consuming mass produced over processed sugar infused fried food substances that come in plastic wrappings or paper/styroform containers .............and then when the feeding frenzy has ended i am even more upset and disappointed because i have failed yet again to stay away from the 'BAD FOOD'

i am also a firm believer in being GREEN/RAW ......when i prepare meals for family and friends i like to use the freshest ingredients and make it all from scratch. i love living in the boondocks where we have so many fresh farm stands available to buy great fruits and vegetables!!!! i LOVE fresh crunchy juicy sweet tangy fruits & veggies!!!

h'mmm i see my split/dual personality shining through once again....if only i could find a way to meet myself half-way someday.

right now i'm in a denial mode....i am denying myself all things 'bad' and TRYING to only eat fruits & veggies with a smattering of proteins mixed in...................................it's not working very well. i already failed yesterday, going for the 'do-over' today...but feeling like i am already slipping over the edges of the slippery slopes & into the big deep dark pit

another mom-ism

diddle diddle dumpling my son john
went to bed with his stockings on
one shoe off and one shoe on
diddle diddle dumpling my son john


.....ok, WHY remember this today.....guess it's just nostalgia......well, that AND as i am sitting here at my desk  really wanting to take a nap i am remembering that my mom used to 'sing' this little rhyme to me all the time because i would forever always have only one shoe on..............................and YES as i am sitting here at my desk, i STILL have only one shoe on.

i think the psycho-analytical-brain-tweakers might pick this apparent character-flaw of mine apart and logical-ize it by saying that i often remove one shoe to symbolize my tendency to only have one foot in reality and the other floating free in some fantasy world or other

...that will be $75, thank you & see you again same time next week!

momentary thoughts

"Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these: 'It might have been.' " ~John Greenleaf Whittier

i often find myself playing the WHAT IF game...

What if i had gotten out of bed when the alarm clock rang this morning
What if i had eaten a salad for dinner instead of that sandwich
What if i had never moved to Hawaii at 21
What if i had gone to college instead of dropping out on that very first day at SFCC
What if i had studied harder in high school, made an effort to get high scores
What if ...
What if ...
What if ...


my mother was always fond of reminding me: "if wishes were horses; beggars would ride"

the things i wish for are the things i can never have. time to forget about the 'coulda beens' and accept the way it is.

monday monday

wish it were a FUN day.......

sometimes i wonder the wisdom of our forefathers when they determined that people should have to WORK to EARN a living. WHY OH WHY can we not PLAY all day.....i never asked to grow up...i never asked to be a responsible member of society........**stomping feet here** i wanna go outside and play....i wanna stay up late and sleep late....i wanna laugh & giggle  cuz the grass is tickling my toes...i wanna run through the sprinklers with all my clothes on and then lay on the hot cement and feel the warmth seeping through my wet clothing

i do NOT wanna work....nope....not today....not tomorrow....not ever!!!!!


*
*
*
SIGH
*
*
*
.....back to reality....back to the mundane & repetitive tasks at hand

i don't wanna grow up! why didn't anyone ask my opinion before forcing this on me?!

new

hour
day
week
month

.
.
.
.
.

gonna make it the best it can be......for the moment on the upswing of this crazy pendulum called LIFE....wondering why there has to be a downside

tomorrow may be dark & gloomy....but for today i will make a happy memory to look back upon in my sorrows and remember the good times

little treasures stored upon the cracked surfaces of my heart, sweetness & sunshine tickling my nose.....fighting for sanity inch by inch
.
.
.
.



<3 sugar garden <3