honesty

i am basically a very honest person.
i do not lie
....especially if you ask me a direct question
if you are not direct i may try to evade the whole truth but i will never tell a blatant lie

except possibly to myself.....seems i deceive myself on a daily basis about many things that matter in life. BUT if i catch myself up in the middle of the night (or more precisely....just before dawn) without any sleep i just may have let my guard down long enough to tell myself the full truth

(ok, yea...i know i'm rambling & not making much sense to YOU...but i'm just capturing thoughts bouncing around in my head after a mostly sleepless night....nothing bad...it was a good night yes...just mostly sleepless)